I am Loved.

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Happy Valentine's Day!

A lot of folks balk at the commercialism of Valentine's Day (which is admittedly difficult to ignore), but I really do feel that it is a good opportunity to remind myself of how much I am loved.  Plus, eating a cupcake and watching 150 preschool kids dressed in pink and red dance around to love songs at the Valentine's Dance is a pretty good way to spend the day. :-)

My engagement ring is a new (very sparkly!) reminder of a very special kind of love I've been blessed with (by the way - I bought my wedding dress today!).  The quiche I had for dinner, made with eggs from my very own chickens, is another reminder.  Knowing that despite the roller-coaster of emotions from losing the farm and quitting my job, I have a supportive family and wonderful group of friends is a third.  The list goes on and on, but I can say with confidence that I am loved.  And I'm so grateful for that.

These days, I take comfort in what I can.  Thinking about the future - even as far as next week - is overwhelming and stressful.  I have 7 farm tours set up for this week (that I'm trying really hard to get excited about!), but beyond that I don't feel like I have much of a plan.  Even the (back-up) farm that I was hoping I could still lease for the season is unavailable.  I know there is plenty of opportunity out there - I just need to find it.

But for tonight, I am loved and that's enough.  One step at a time.